reminiscing

now that i look back.. in our so-called 'love'... you did not make an effort to capture all those moments that we had.. even if i made an effort to try to capture them, taking photos of you and initiating self-taken shots for the both of us.. you never ever tried to capture my moments.. i had to ask you to, or had to throw a tantrum so as to get it done..

you never gave me those hugs when i needed them so... not even a subtle effort to...

you couldnt even keep your word when you said your coming down.. there's always something out there that would 'restrict' your appearance.. there's always something out there that you have to attend to.. it isnt as if we met every single day.. but you couldnt even dedicate an off day to meet me when you said you would..

making a resolution on facebook to make and do something special for me on our every monthsary.. but now, you need not do it anymore.. you can save yourself all the trouble.. for even after so long, you still did not realise what i wanted.. i never asked for expensive gifts and all.. even if you just took an a4 paper, folded it into 2, and wrote something sweet to commemorate every month.. im more than happy.. but now that aint gonna happen anymore..

and yet the fool sitting here, typing all these.. yearns for you to appear before her now..